My Present State

So right now I'm having a diffucult time. I feel as if my world is crashing down and suffocating me slowly and my adoptive parents helping the matter at all. They are so paranoid about the Corona Virus that I haven't left my house in over a week. This normally wouldn't bother me any except I did something stupid and got my phone taken away so now I pretty much only get to talk to my adoptive parents and sister. I feel like in the past week I've cried so much that we could make a whole river. I've had a lot happen to me that no one should have to deal with and that's a story for another time. I have a lot of trouble trusting people because of my past and how my biological family hurt me and broke my trust time and time again and I've only really had three people in my whole biological family who never hurt me. One is my grandfather and he passed away when I was six but it still bothers me a lot I was really close to him. The second person is my Uncle Pete but he doesn't really have anything to do with me because of the fact he's gay and doesn't have any clue what to do with a teenage girl well I'm not a normal teenage girl I prefer to be called a tomboy but I never really understood that as an excuse not to want to be around me but oh well. The last person is my Aunt Debbie and she is one of what feels like thousands of things that are bothering or upsetting me. You see she's really sick and there's nothing we can do and I can't see her since I'm not allowed to see my biological family. She has cancer and it started in her liver but it's moved to her lungs and parts of her brain and I'm so worried and scared that I won't be able to say goodbye to someone I love. Sorry, this is so depressing.